Sunday, August 12, 2012
Tiba-tiba teringat pasal kejadian beberapa bulan lepas.
Sewaktu tengok wayang, dia pegang tangan aku. Lebih dari 5 saat. Hmm... mula-mula aku ingat tersentuh. Tapi tak la pulak dia lepas. Aku pun tak la tarik pasal aku konfius. Eh, mamat ni pegang tangan aku pasal nak proove a point dia sejuk ke, nak tumpang warmth aku ke, nak pegang tangan aku pasal nak pegang?
Seperti biasa, aku bab-bab macam ni kalau jadi kat diri sendiri, memang akan terbodoh. So I let him hold my hand, but I didn't encourage him. Dalam makna lain, takde la aku genggam balik. I just well, let my hand be in his.
I think it went for quite a while... before he let go. Just when I was getting comfortable with the fact that this dude might have wanted to hold my hand just because he wanted to do so and not because he was really cold. Was me being unresponsive led him to let go? did he think I didn't like him holding my hand? I didn't hold back because I didn't wanna be seen as you know, actually wanting more, but then again, did I?
bila tang batang hidung sendiri, aku memang tak boleh figure out lelaki.